you lose some, but you win some. i guess that’s what 2009 meant to me.
(-) i’ve never had so much highs and lows in a year before. the biggest low would have to be the knee injury, which is by the way, still healing albeit slowly. that definitely taught me a lot. to the friends who helped me while i was still limping like a demented criminal let loose, i am honestly touched and thankful. you know who you are ;)
(-/+) inevitably though, some people do drift away. it’s all part of life and i’ve begun to take it all with a pinch of salt. you know, to quote the beatles, all you need is love. but to the new friendships acquired this year, i give you this: *throws confetti and party streamers :)
(+) i’d like to believe that i’ve grown more independent, and i’ve never been happier. i discovered the joy of solo shopping and chilling at starbucks sessions. you know, it’s not about being a loner. it doesn’t hurt to be on your own once in a while. people watching, that’s something that i did during these solo sessions. a real eye opener sometimes.
(+) as always, i shopped my wallet and heart out at the end of this year, like i did the previous years. nothing beats the joy of carrying bags filled with your buys, especially if it’s in december where all the sale signs are aplenty.
(++++) i finally got to eat at subway and carl’s jr. thank you mom and dad for that.
(-) had a mini bout of, well i wouldn’t exactly call it depression, more like ‘lows’. but i’m glad i got out of it because it, in a way, changed me completely till i sort of missed the ‘old’ me.
(-) well, i didn’t manage to run a marathon, lose weight or find love. there’s always next year, yes?
i read today’s newspaper and there was an article about cycling in paris. omg, i never felt so intrigued and excited about the idea of traveling and exploring a city through cycling. i’ll add that to the ‘things i would love to do one day’ list, beside my backpacking trip in europe. cycling… i want! :)
image from http://www.sustainablecitiesinstitute.org
i’ve been dreaming about someone for the past few nights, but last night’s dream was like, whatever happened in that dream HAPPENED in real life. i had to remind myself that it was only a dream the minute i woke up. it felt so, sorry for the lack of word, real.
these days i find that dreams are like traveling into a world of escapism, where all your wishes and (undisclosed) desires float around with all the random stuff that you remember, consciously or not, during the day. it was fun while i was dreaming, but then i wake up to reality and of course it’s not the same snap happy moment most of the time. i’m not saying that i don’t ever want to wake up but yeah, you get it.
the weird thing is that the person that i’ve been dreaming of probably doesn’t know that i exist… yet?
“Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through for you”—